Packed and Ready to Go

So I would imagine that many of you are questioning my next adventure. Maybe not that I have one, but maybe the location or duration...or possibly even the intension.
The truth is, even if you don't understand me, I think that each of you can relate to the desire and need associated with such an experience. And if not, then I admire you for your strength, confidence and ability to accept the world and life.
Life is beautiful. Everything from the snowcaped mountains to the grace of morning fog hoovering in the valley . The beauty of watching my bamboo grow, or hearing my cat talk to me. Feeling the love and acceptance of a friend, or allowing the gaps between generations disinigrate. Allowing a child to teach you how to see the world, and making the attempt to make the world a smaller place.
What do we all want in life? Love, and to be loved! Yes, there are other desires such as success, money, material goods...but when it comes down to pricless experiences in life it revolves around love.
Love has many different places in our lives. Friends and family are always the most obvious, but what about self love? I feel that so often we are shunned for being selfish, if we are looking after ourselves. I will admit that one of the most valuable things that I have learned in my 29 years, is that personal love and happiness is the first priority. You can't rely on someone else to know what is best for you. And I am sure many of you would counter that I don't know what is right for me.
Touche.
We all have our demons, whether large or small. My largest demon is myself. I have been stuggling to figure out why and how. Is it because of soceity? Or is it personal struggles? Or possibly something else?
My trip to Thailand is not just my first trip to Asia, it is my first true attempt to delve within my soul and spirit. I plan on spending a minumum of two week in a monestary learning and practicing Vipassana, a form of meditation.
I believe that so much of our enviornment forces stress on us, that we forget how to breathe, and LIVE life. This trip is an escape from our driven, successful world. It is a trip to reach self discovery, as well as self disaplin...and ultimately self love.
Meditation allows us to look inward, and to live in the moment. So much of what we do in our daily lives we choose to suppress emotions, or cover them up with other destructive obsessions. This time is to teach me how to break away from that.
This trip is not really a journey to find myself. I know much about who I am and how I work. I am going to immerse myself into my spirt and understand my pain, and my struggles. Accept my weakneses, and hopeful learn to love myself despite them.
I love you all. It is because of your love for me that has allowed me to start this journey of acceptance.
Thank you all. I am hoping you will continue to join me on this journey. Take care. You are all in my thoughts and my heart.